"Reflections..."

I wrote this this august sitting and pondering how much i've been through since leaving for college, amazed at how much i've learned and grown...


8/1/2009

I remember mom crying when I left for college

All the endless flat tires and broken failed engine responses

The voicemail that played over and over of

A lost love

Friendship at its best

Questions in the early early morning

And kisses that laid to rest

Dreams that were learned and

Eyes that cried a mind unresponsive

At reasons for goodbye

The definition of alone never

Proved so valid and mistakes

And crooked lines

Gave me the challenge

Of thinking I wasn’t who I thought I was

And I didn’t want so soon

What I thought I needed

as I watched the miles run

on my odometer

liberation came as the speed

Reached eighty five

So we covered the windows

Once the sun rose

Sleeping in carried over

Even when the places to be became

Ever the more impendent

Pretending was paired with pulling

The covers over my eyes

Sometimes even

To sleep at night

I would realize that eyes closed

I could still see the light

Refined Desires

Hectic schedule.... I will try to post a real post later...but here is a glimpse of what's going on in my life and heart


[1:42:35 PM] Cathy To: you know, if we are walking with the Lord, and if our heart is right with him....if we truly desire His will above our own....
[1:42:46 PM] Cathy To: then we have nothing to worry about
[1:42:53 PM] Cathy To: we should have complete trust and reliance on him
[1:43:01 PM] Cathy To: that he's going to bring about that in our lives
[1:43:07 PM] Cathy To: so we don't have to fight for something or be disappointed
[1:43:18 PM] Cathy To: because what we truly want is what He wants...and He will surely do it.



It is just the road of getting to the point of desiring nothing apart from His will.





Philippians 4:6-7

Purpose.

I’ve realized the whole of my life is to soak in every experience, sight and wonder--Letting God breathe truth into perspective

before I breathe it out.