Chances

Chances are when said and done
Who'll be the lucky ones
Who make it all the way?
Though you say I could be your answer
Nothing lasts forever
No matter how it feels today

Chances are we´ll find a new equation
Chances roll away from me
Chances are all they hope to be

Don't get me wrong I'd never say never
Cause though love can change the weather
No act of God can pull me away from you

I´m just a realistic man
A bottle filled with shells and sand
Afraid to love beyond what I can lose when it comes to you
And though I see us through yeah

Chances are we´ll find two destinations
Chances roll away from me
Still chances are more than expectations
The possibilities
Over me
Eight to five, two to one
Lay your money on the sun
until you crash what have you done?
Is there a better bet than love?
What you are is what you breathe
You gotta cry before you sing

Chances chances

Chances lost are hopes torn up pages
Maybe this time
Chances are we´ll be the combination
Chances come and carry me
Chances are waiting to be taken
And I can see
Chances are the fascination
Chances won't escape from me
Chances are only what we make them
And all I need


-Five for Fighting.

"Reflections..."

I wrote this this august sitting and pondering how much i've been through since leaving for college, amazed at how much i've learned and grown...


8/1/2009

I remember mom crying when I left for college

All the endless flat tires and broken failed engine responses

The voicemail that played over and over of

A lost love

Friendship at its best

Questions in the early early morning

And kisses that laid to rest

Dreams that were learned and

Eyes that cried a mind unresponsive

At reasons for goodbye

The definition of alone never

Proved so valid and mistakes

And crooked lines

Gave me the challenge

Of thinking I wasn’t who I thought I was

And I didn’t want so soon

What I thought I needed

as I watched the miles run

on my odometer

liberation came as the speed

Reached eighty five

So we covered the windows

Once the sun rose

Sleeping in carried over

Even when the places to be became

Ever the more impendent

Pretending was paired with pulling

The covers over my eyes

Sometimes even

To sleep at night

I would realize that eyes closed

I could still see the light

Refined Desires

Hectic schedule.... I will try to post a real post later...but here is a glimpse of what's going on in my life and heart


[1:42:35 PM] Cathy To: you know, if we are walking with the Lord, and if our heart is right with him....if we truly desire His will above our own....
[1:42:46 PM] Cathy To: then we have nothing to worry about
[1:42:53 PM] Cathy To: we should have complete trust and reliance on him
[1:43:01 PM] Cathy To: that he's going to bring about that in our lives
[1:43:07 PM] Cathy To: so we don't have to fight for something or be disappointed
[1:43:18 PM] Cathy To: because what we truly want is what He wants...and He will surely do it.



It is just the road of getting to the point of desiring nothing apart from His will.





Philippians 4:6-7

Purpose.

I’ve realized the whole of my life is to soak in every experience, sight and wonder--Letting God breathe truth into perspective

before I breathe it out.

Psalm 103

This verse came into my spirit yesterday as I was thinking of God's goodness...

Psalm 103

¹ Praise the LORD, O my soul;
all my inmost being, praise his holy name.

² Praise the LORD, O my soul,
and forget not all his benefits-

³ who forgives all your sins
and heals all your diseases,

⁴ who redeems your life from the pit
and crowns you with love and compassion,

⁵ who satisfies your desires with good things
so that your youth is renewed like the eagle's.

Resolve

God's been speaking to me a lot about resolve....and I read this last night:


Never revise decisions. If you have made a wrong decision, then face the music and stand up to it; do not whimper and say--"I won't do that again." Take the initiative, take the step with your will now; burn your bridges behind you--"I will write that letter"; "I will pay that debt"; make it impossible to go back on the decision. Sentimentality always begins when we refuse to obey, when we refuse to take some stand God has told us to because of an insinuation that has come in from somewhere. If we hesitate, insinuations are sure to come."

-Chambers, Grow Up in Him, Take the Initiative

Psalm 37

I wrote this in reply to a note that a friend posted on facebook. I figured since I haven't had the time to write anything in here that this could suffice.....because I am reminded again of this chapter today.



Wow ----------, i really really really like this. I can relate to this on every level, in fact, these are some of the thoughts that i've been thinking lately honestly. I am so glad that you realize the calling that God has placed on our lives, how we are to be to others, even if they are not to us. But it's definitely hard to find yourself in a difficult place and feel as if no one's there. When i think that, i wonder how many more people feel the same way. Last night as I was reflecting on some things in my life, God brought me back to Psalms 37 (it seems like He does this every two years when I'm going through a difficult time, since I have all these dates written down next to this chapter). I just felt like I should share this with you...

Do not fret because of evil men or be envious of those who do wrong....
fret means to gnaw, to rub, corrode, to cause to suffer emotional strain, to pass time in worrying, to agitate...to eat into something…

Do not suffer emotional strain because of evil men or be envious of those who do wrong….
Trust in the Lord and do good….
Wait patiently for Him
Do not suffer emotional strain when men succeed in their ways, when they carry out wicked schemes. Refrain from anger and turn from wrath…..HOPE in the Lord

I had been thinking about my life and the difficulties that I have been given. For a while I really just thought that this was my “lot” in life. And I cried to God because it was so difficult. He was the orchestrator of life and why he made it this way, I didn't know. And it frustrated me. I thought this difficulty was mine to bear, and mine alone. Finally, God last night just told me to give it over to him. “Stop thinking about the difficulty and just trust me to fight it for you. Trust me to bring about the good in your life. Don’t think about how unfair this situation is. Don’t think about how this person is not there for you even after all those times you forgave and were consistently there for them. Do not dwell on the wrongs of others. Trust me to fight and contend for you. Let it go, it’s mine.” When I realized this, a light bulb came on and I just stopped crying…I felt the pain no more. After many sleepless nights, I fell right asleep and had the peace that I had been searching for….

I’ve always thought I’ve trusted God with everything, but last night, trust to Him meant for me to stop thinking and crying about it and let him handle it.

“Some of the battles of your life were given to you not so you can fight them, but so that you can simply hand them over to me to fight for you.”

I’m not sure if this speaks to you or if I went onto another subject, haha. But I felt like I should share this with you. you’re not alone ----------. I know we’re not super close (that should change!) but I’m always here if you need me….I think we relate on many levels. I’ve felt just the same way recently, it’s really ironic. But then, maybe not.

You’ve always been super encouraging and non-judgmental for the right reasons and I’ve always loved that about you.

God’s got you in his hands, Be encouraged ----------, I see such great things in store for you. Just be patient and wait for it….



In Christ,
Cathy